it's been a while.
i'm tired of not bieng able to make space for things like this, of being perhaps too cowardly, of hiding behind the barriers of academic work or of sudden illness. i'm tired of not being as emotive as i am - or believe to be- sensitive. maybe my problems lie in my lack of apreciation for expessions of emotionality, that
can really become scary, but, not enough to make me stop struggling (i think my spelling and grammar become worse every day.... *]*) ahg, i don't think i can keep writting to-day.....
joy is a most terrifying thing